high pattern recognition

2025-04-02

#AuDHD #learning

wow… after some time, they realized that their high pattern recognition works with programming too… when i read the page, i can see the structure… at least after checking the code in case if it's too complex to understand intuitively. firefox code inspector in flesh… (lol)

i remember, a year (or so) ago this kind of elements interactions and attributes was too difficult for me. yes, this is a natural process of learning, and i'm aware of how my adhd influences it… but such insights are shocking every time!

well, at least something in this chaos of a(u)dhd is good and interesting. because noticing patterns (ominous pause) is not a purely pleasant experience.

human languages learning

you know, 5 years ago i wasn't able to build a sentence in english. only a primitive one.

7 years ago i didn't understand too "advanced" speech (like ttrpg sessions of native speakers or poetry). i tried to watch critical role, and didn't understand it! what the fuck! then i watched them again a few years later, only to find out that it finally makes sense. and i naturally catch the meaning of what they're saying, even if i don't know the particular word!

context is a pattern blessing.

9 years ago i had trouble understanding anything more complex than a typical indie-horror-game-vocabulary, as i call it (torch, flashlight, key, fuses, basement) (lol).

it works for both human language and programming language…

important note

i am well aware of my quirky grammar and frequent mistakes - not even mentioning dyslexic typos - but at this point i don't really care as long as it's not a creative work where i need to be good at grammar, because it would be a tool to accurately express shapes from the inside of my head.

it's not something unique, not for a(u)dhd individuals, nor for neurotypical people. i just decided to… recognize my individual feature and ability? to see myself.

human brains are so fucked up and beautiful. what.